Journal Dec. 3

I think part of the reason that Okonkwo was not eating was that he was still in shock. This probably worried him because he probably never experienced it before. He also probably thought that he was being womanly because he was experiencing shock and feeling emotions. This shows that he is not fully a man inside according to him but he wants to do anything to become one. His "son" was also killed because he wasn't Okonkwo's true son. This probably made him feel more like a woman because he had to deal with the fact that basically his son wasn't good enough. He was also left with only one other son, Nyowe. He probably felt like a woman because Nyowe wasn't that much of a man. If he could not have any manly sons than that would make him not manly. This shows that he is self conscious about his manliness. One can see that he really wants to be treated like a man which is why during the sacraficed of Ikemefuna. He doesn't stand back and try to avoid the sacrafice. He jumps right in and kills Ikemefuna. This shows that he wants to impress everyone with his manliness. However, deep down on the inside he is sad because his son has died. He doesn't want to let this show but it has been shown when he doesn't eat. He feels like this makes him a woman.